I normaly don’t post stuff like this on tumblr but lj is down now so
I hate when people tell me obvious lies. I know they mean good and just want to cheer me up, but it doesn’t work that way. When I say I know it means I know. I know my situation, I know me and I know how my life works. I try hard or I try not hard enough but I never get what I want. I’m a failure and a dissapointment, especially to myself, and I try to accept it. It just kinda piss me off when people around me don’t want to see that and accept that fact. It does hurts me to see all my friends being successful and me being the odd one but I am truly happy for them. I just feel bad for myself. I know I don’t have luck in life and never will, so please don’t tell me that it will “for sure be ok” because I know it won’t.
#my post#blah#darki talks about her feelings 101#no one cares#but lj is down#none would care there either#personal shit